i knew that a boy would be a distraction. God knew that a boy would be a distraction. and i don’t spite Him for the way He’s laid things out. i was meant to work on school; work on a degree. i needed to be able to focus on three jobs and not feel guilty for all the time they would demand. i needed to know it would be okay not to focus my life around someone but instead to focus on my future. a future that is very important to not only me, but my family.

overall, i just needed to know that what i want is important and that it will all be okay.

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