i know you still want me to find you charming. and sometimes, i wish i did because it would make things easier for me. and i wouldn’t have to fight with you and tell you that i don’t think of you like that anymore. and it would hurt less for you. and i would really like that for you. for you to be happy and not hurt. but it only lasts so long before you purposely destroy it. so no, i will not fall into this again. i don’t want to. i don’t want to be¬†complacent with you, i want to be in love with him.

you cannot change and i cannot love you.