I’ve lost them all. I pushed them away and I think I’m starting fresh. I think I want new opportunities even if it does hurt to lose my boys. I can’t keep letting these boys who are so in my life control me. I need someone who doesn’t know me and my soft spoken qualities. I need a man who is not willing to test his boundaries because he wants me that badly. I want him to be careful he doesn’t lose me. Maybe I’m to blame for the way everything’s worked out. I was too lenient with my emotions and let these children get the best of me. But no longer!